struggling

YES! i am still struggling for nothing ..

i really do not know why i doing so ...

is it that i need more time? 

i am really dissapointed towards you.. on what you have done

TRUST! the most valuable things on earth - as i defined

when u lost the trust towards someone, is IMPOSSIBLE to gain back the trust 

there is no such thing : CHANCE

NO! 

why should i give u chance?
why? why?

until now i still dunno why you did that?

and until now i know u wont believe and accept what you have did !

How i am going to overcome this?

why i am still struggling ..

i really do not know why....

really struggle for nothing..... 

mixed up feeling ..

i know it should not be ...

but u are there when i needed support...

but how come ended with different support..

seems like we needed each other everyday..

but then...

DO you know what are you doing?

DO i know what am i doing?

for truth: no, i don't

i just know i am happy, i am glad to have you.

but i also know that the existence of me will eventually destroy a lot of things ..

maybe i think too much...

but for sure, i know i have already started to DESTROY...

just felt that i am a destroyer...

destroy everything that is perfect ..

sorry... but what can i do ...

stay away from you?

or 

act as normal?

or 

tell you what's going on?

although i really tell you what's going on..

so?

i know is impossible..

i just want this temporary feeling ...

relaxing, sweet, treasured by someone...

is impossible... is impossible ...

haiz ..

what can i really do to make everything become normal??????